This weekend, Clif added pictures to an old folder on Facebook. So this was in my feed yesterday. I told Clif that I thought I might cry, because here he is last week...
And I just got his Kindergarten registration packet. And he went to his first friend birthday party. And I put away all his 4T clothes. And he's just so big. My little, chubby, love monster is growing up so fast. I can't believe it.
Freddie will by 5 in about 3 weeks. Five. That's such a monumental age. Everything changes at 5. They officially become kids at 5. No more toddler or preschooler references. Five is big time. Freddie can't wait to be 5. He can't wait for Kindergarten.
Freddie rarely gets all my attention. In fact, if you scroll through my pictures on my phone...there aren't many of him. At least not by himself. In my defense, part of that is because he is such a monster and it is rare that he'll sit and take a picture.
So last week, when everything was shut down for snow, and Ainsley was at a neighbor's and Daddy was putting Cohen down for a nap, Freddie and I made cookies.
Have I mentioned my baking prowess? No? That's because it doesn't exist. I'm a terrible baker and I don't really enjoy it. It's such a mess and then I'm left with all these sugary, bread-y, treats that I shouldn't eat but want to eat and it's just bad.
But when you just have one kid and his sister is making cupcakes at a friend's and he's never baked cookies all by himself with you, well you just suck it up and destroy the kitchen you just cleaned...and mopped, by the way!
Freddie kept asking "Can I add the egg?" "Can I do the sugar?" And I kept saying yes, you get to do it all. He was so excited. He's never known a life where sharing doesn't exist, where he gets all the things or all the tasks, all to himself.
So he cracked eggs and poured milk and measured sugar.
And ate a lot of cookie dough. All by himself.
We made peanut butter cookies and pressed Reese's peanut butter hearts into them. I was low on chocolate chips and we only had heart shaped PB cups. It's very fitting though. Freddie is so full of love and emotion. You don't think that when you meet him. He can be a little rough around the edges. But he loves so completely. He feels all the emotions to the fullest extent.
Plus when you press the chocolate into the hot cookie, it melts, and he definitely melts my heart.
|Side note...this cookie is atrocious! Terrible baker.|
Yesterday while at a birthday party, he had a hard time joining the group. He wanted me to play with him. When he finally did participate, he and a bunch of boys were running around with light sabers and pretending to be Jedi. But every time he caught my eye, he'd stop and blow me a kiss. Or he'd run back up the stairs and give me a hug.
He is all heart.